I Didn't Have Séx With Men, Other Girls Are Doing It, Now I'm 40 No Husband; God Why Me?

This life is a mystery. Bad girls end up enjoying
best of life and some will later repent and
enjoyment continue but what are we going to
make of ladies who choose to live right from day
one, yet things are not working?
This woman's situation captures one of such
confusing scenarios. Read her story below:
I'm 40years old today and I'm the saddest
person alive. So I'm writing this letter
today to God through your blog hoping
somebody somewhere can help me make
sense of my life.
Dear God,
I'm 40 today and I hate the life you have
given me. This isn't living. Being dead is
better than this. Haba God, after my
sacrifice, after serving you in truth and in
spirit. You bring me shame? I have no
money, no kids, no husband and you want
me to continue serving you. Haha!
From 18, I served your church till now;
when my mates were busy having séx with
their future husbands I was in church for
praise and worship, cleaning chairs, going
for revival, visitation, paying my tithes. etc.
Dear God, you no try! If I were you, I would
have blessed me since. I never disobeyed
my parents while they were alive. I read my
bible daily, I was a virgin till I was 31 for
Christ sake. Haba!
People told me, leave Ikotun and move to the
Island. There are husbands there. I moved,
nothing. They told me, change your church, I
changed. Still nothing. Lose ur virg-inity, men
dont like mature virgins, I lost it. Still no man to
marry me. What strategy have I not tried.
My mates that aren't married have money, and if
they don't have money they have kids. Why have
you chosen to humiliate me like this? Was I
wrong to give up my virg-inity at 31? Is that
why you are not fair to me, if that's the reason,
all my friends and siblings stopped being virgins
in their early 20s and they are all married with
children. So that can't be. Or maybe my reward
isn't here on earth. Oya take me, let me rest. I'm
asthmatic, I'm lonely, I'm poor and not happy.
This is too much. Too much
Somebody, anybody, please explain to me what I
have done wrong. How does God work? Because
I can't seem to make sense of my existence here
on earth.